the last 24 hours

It's been an awkward 24 hrs. . . . it started with being blown off, yea I got a bit over pissed . . . I shouldnt have let it get to me, but it was pretty much the straw on the camels back. . . . my last straw of sanity gone. . . . . it seems pretty much every single friend, family member, association I have takes advantage of me and screws me over in the end! Two guys within the last 6 months pretended they were friends with me, asked me for sexual favors . . . . one just leaving a relationship which he promptly went back to the other still in one, I'm sorry but WTF is your problem asking women for that when your. . . . . uhg never mind. . . . so friend wise I dont get texts, messages, etc to see how I am pretty much ever the only people who check up on me are my mom and sister. . . . . my brother although I love him so much, he rarely calls me, I never hear word one from my father. . . . . my best friends never call except for jessica . . . . . . for a while I tried my best to stay in contact with everyone but I am so sick and tired of being the only one who tries in a friendship. . . . . . I'm sick and tired of caring when no one cares about me or whats going on, or wants me to drop school my life etc to be there for them, where were they when I needed them? GONE! All the time I have set aside to spend with friends . . . . and they always find a reason to go do something else or dont invite me, and I'm suppose to make them #1 on my list? Sorry for the language but fuck them to fucking hell! They can burn for all I care! I've been a toy for people to play with and throw aside for too long. . . . then when people ask my why my self confidence is shot to shit, WTF would keep it in tact?! I've spent every second of the last 24 hours when I wasnt sleeping or working blasting My Chemical Romance in my ears trying to calm myself down, not only did I have a complete breakdown only 3 friends have texted me to see if I'm ok! I mean seriously? Only one of them made me feel any better and I've never actually met her! . . . again seriously! And the amazing part is I think about my nieces and nephews, how much I love them and have tried to be apart of their lives. . . . . where was my family? Other than my Mother, Sister, and Brother. . . . . where were the rest of them? too busy I'm sure. . . . *rolls eyes* . . . . not only that but the fact that they talk shit behind my back, and they think I dont know. . . . oh that is just the cherry on the effing cake right there . . . . love and compassion for the family . . . . not to mention the friends that dont know that I know what they say behind my back, too you who do . . . BIG middle finger to you . . . . . your words mean nothing anymore . . . . so in conclusion of 24 hours of continuous listening to My Chemical Romance and thinking. . . . I'm gonna go ahead and revert to better years the 2 years following high school where I was heavily into my chem and not care about friends and their crap . . . Thank you and goodnight! uhg

I feel this song goes along with this post quite well
"but I think were the enemy"